Mice

I do my best to keep my problems on the inside, so nobody can trip over them.

(I'm totally putting this on my next jumper btw)

[to prevent theft this image has been scaled and transparency has been removed]

I give up using codenames, if you read this you know us all already.

A whole conversation without words. We do it all the time.
What you can tell from an eye or a movement is more than words can express.

Today was like a smaller Thursday!
It was epic.
*laugh at in-joke*
(Cam will never know)

These past few weeks have been the best in my entire life.

What can I say? Life was boring, and now I have something to look forward to.

SCREW SEGWAYS!

I loooove whitecap! If my music looks like this, what's not to like? :)

There's a mouse in the house. I saw him. He was so tiny :D Scampering under my door... then running away to hide.

You are the intruder, you must either leave or die.

I'm so glad I have a mouse.

Trapped

I know you're behind the glass, but I can't reach you.

I know you could be here. This glass keeps us apart.

So close I can feel you near. I only want what's in my heart.

I could break down this dividing wall. Take you as my own.

You can only hear me call, I will save you, else remain alone.

I feel forgotten, the darkness enveloped me, I must restore the light.

I have to break free, struggle at the bonds, put up a fight.

The floor here is cold, my voice has become a rasp.

There's nothing to hold, nothing to grasp.

I'm aching to be with you, to stare into your eyes, to see your smile.

I'll have to push through, then it may all be worthwhile.

I can't wait to feel your embrace, a hole has formed in front of me.

But it's nothing I can't replace, it's you I want to see.

It's finally time to escape, to walk away, I smash down the reflection.

I run to meet your shape, feel the sudden connection.

I bend over and kiss you, it's like an explosion in my chest.

I am finally at rest.

Life is good.

Time for a blog post with [feeling].

I'm progressing and having fun while doing it.
Everything is one big joke... the whole rhombus situation is hilarious.
The two girls planned it all along while I just watched and came along for the ride. Bear had no clue.

The rhombus is:

Owy is my girl [SPACE] friend. My bestie. Can talk to her about life, and everything. We play games on chairs, laugh at our separate situations, and just give out life tips.

Bear is a friend. I can laugh at things with him, and it's not awkward. No sexual tension, no matter what the girls have to say.

Penguin is my everything, really. Nothing much to say, we can talk about anything. Stare at each other for ever. Talk without talking. Any contact is welcome. Whether physical, or through msn. But darn I want more physical time spent with her, msn is a distraction, more than time well spent. It's like fill in time. Nothing really gets achieved, but we both enjoy talking/listening/discussing.

We both get late night longings for hugs.

[/feeling]

Quality

HEEEEEEHEEHEHE

Eheheheheheheh

Bear and Xin have finally gotten their shit sorted.
Tis all calm and the rhombus is resolved.
Although... Xin isn't very calm...
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I can use this blog to shout out for some of my DeviantArt subs.

Adonihis

He painted this in a DAY!                           And this is some of the artwork in his book

Andree Wallin

So good, that he didn't like the look of this image, and put it in SCRAPS!  : O

I didn't bother to upload this before... but LOLZ.

I used to know this person! hahah

AUGH Youtube had an update and it killed all my subscription videos I hadn't watched yet!
> : (

I think I can draw...

I wonder what life would be like if everything went to plan.

My life is like my sketches... I mean, they turn out well, but there are a lot of failures in between.

I haven't actually done much sketching, I used to draw stupid scenes constantly... I never actually drew properly. I recently picked up a pencil for vis comm just to sketch out some ideas I had, it makes it a lot easier to put things on the screen if you draw them first.

I went through a few design ideas when making Owys blog header.

This one didn't fit with the page theme, I like it a damn lot, but I really didn't work with the clean design.

This one too didn't fit with the theme, I tried to add a white vignette to make it blend into the site, but it made it look horrible.

This one fit the site design, but the edge on the bottom left didn't fit into the page, so I figured I needed to keep the header contained.

Bright red, looked great. Didn't fit with the pinky background stains.

Final.

I don't trace, or sketch from memory, it's just a lot of looking and judging distance/direction and tone.

I forget why I drew this one... something about being pissed off at the whole situation of my life, I dunno, it's a constant: HAPPY, SAD, HAPPY, SAD, HAPPY, SAD, HAPPY, SAD, HAPPY, SAD.

Oh look it's Penguin! Oh, she can only stay for an hour.

Oh look I get this now! Oh, wait, I don't get it when it's like 'this'.

It's weird, I'm happy overall, mainly because I'm always smiling to myself. But then the whole picture of spesh, parents, skiing, formal, etc just hits me.

I drew this one for vis comm, as a poster design idea.

I'm hard to draw :/

Sometimes I even impress myself...

[woah, I just realised I must have uploaded the full photo... don't try to expand it hehehe]

Yay-aw

Well spesh is looking less daunting, I still don't fully get some of the concepts, but I'm getting there.

Bear teaches well.

Thursdays are awesome.

I had a .flac converter already XD 320kb/s ftw.

Sing For Absolution gives some of the worst misheard lyrics...

...if you haven't heard it, look it up. Seriously. Bad.

This is a pretty sexy trailer, for a game that doesn't even exist.

I just love the whole concept and design of it all, it's just an animation studio having some fun.

I think it's time for change

(L)

Also, who can't do stereograms (magic eyes), who hasn't seen one before?

My shoulder smells like penguin :D

1 Million More Problems

Yeah, I think I might have a blog too, I mean why not?

I can waste my time and get my feelings out there XD

So yah, this page just got a serious makeover, I'm learning how to edit these templates, It'll help in the future..
At the moment I'm trying to get it so the sidebar doesn't get kicked over to the bottom on lower window resolutions... :/
[this may be a temporary blog location]

I'm going to laugh at the slow reactions of you rhombus people... YOU HAD A BLOG?

Yeah, well I do now! mwhahhaha

It's like the complete opposite in design compared to Owys.

This skiing-formal dilemma is getting the best of me.

I hate disappointing people, I can't ditch my parents, and I REALLY don't want to ditch Penguin...
:(

I'm not sure how to deal with this situation.

If I make a list of things it makes it easier to understand, but I'm not sure how it helps me.
I can't back out of skiing, because my parents will murder me.
I also think 6 days skiing is MUCH better than one night at a formal.
Because I am a pretty good skier I'd be skiing around with my mum... :/

I get the feeling Penguin values the formal more, and I don't want to force her into anything, or make her regret choosing to ditch the formal.
If she goes to the formal it'd be me, my brother and his girlfriend in a room, which would be pretty awkward.
I'd feel left out, and really guilty not taking her to the formal, I try to tell myself that she would be happy, but then I feel jealous that others get to spend time with her.
That's the end line when it comes down to it.
Skiing is my favourite thing to be doing, but I'd have to say I'd much rather spend time with Penguin.
I was talking to Bear about it, I'm just trying to pin the two together.

There is another angle, if Penguin did come skiing, she'd be a beginner, (never seen snow O:) I'm not sure what I'd be doing, I'm sure I'd be glad to teach or ski along side her lesson for a few days, and I'm not sure if she'd be happy learning to ski with Bro and his GF.

So in my reality there is only one solution, get Owy and Bear to come too.
Raising 1000000 more problems.

If only I had a time machine... then, and only then, could I fix it all.

In other news, it's really weird typing code names.
I don't know how this blog helps, but meh, it's here now.